Who do we really think a hero is?

The standard dictionary defines a hero as a person who is admired or idealized for courage, outstanding achievements, or noble qualities.

That definition can be interpreted in many ways really, so why do we always think of a hero as someone who has fought in a war, or saved a life? I don’t mean to downplay that, because YES – those people are absolutely heroes. BUT – what about the everyday person who is fighting a battle within themselves and still manages to plant their feet on the floor every morning and do what they need to do to survive?

Hero?

Yep, I’d say so.

The everyday hero often gets overlooked and, at times, we know those heroes. They are our co-workers, the single mothers, the fathers, the people fighting mental illness, the teenage mother who put her child up for adoption, and the addicts who got clean. These are only examples of what a hero can look like because there are many more heroes out there!

What about when you want to say, ” I love you,” but you’re not sure if the other person feels the same. That takes courage – that is a hero.

What about working long shifts at work in order to be able to provide for your family, even though you know it’s not enough. You secretly think you’re a loser who will never be able to sufficiently provide for your family. Well, you’re a hero. You go out every day and give it your best. You most likely put yourself last, always.

Do you know who else I believe are heroes?

People who are disabled, but still manage to get through the day, because they are glad to be alive. Hero!

People who come home to their families when they have just been told: “You don’t work here anymore.” Hero!

To the mom who looks in the mirror and wonders where that little girl went? The one who dreamed of prince charming being her hero. Well, believe me, your kids believe you are that superhero.

But why don’t we celebrate the everyday hero?

A hero is someone who has the courage that comes from within. The fight goes on inside us all. It’s the fight to believe that we have what it takes to get through the day.

It is the women who know going to work every day means she might not be there for her children when they arrive home from school. It is the mother who might miss tucking them into bed at night. Who tiptoes into the bedroom and pull up the blankets against their tiny little bodies, brushes their hair back and whispers, ” I love you” as a tear slides down their cheek because they miss them so much. Hero for sure.

To the women who go hungry, because there’s not enough food in the house. You, my dear, are a hero.

To the woman who doesn’t have children and is ok with that. You are a hero because you’re able to speak and live in your truth, even though you might face some criticism.

To the women, like myself, who have lost children and now speak to them, as angels. You are a hero. You hold your head up when all you really want to do is lay down and cry and pray.

We are all heroes, we all beat to the same heart. We all have lessons and challenges to go through, hopefully with grace. But we are all the same, we are each other’s heroes. Someone somewhere is looking to you for strength. I know it can be difficult, but try to remember that when those dark days come flooding into your life. You are a hero. Someone looks up to you. It could be your child, it could be your spouse, your parent, your colleague and it also could be yourself searching for a miracle to brighten your dark days.

Look around you and see the everyday heroes in your life. Great job everyone!

This week I don’t have a top 5, as I truly believe we are all a hero in some way, and it is up to us to see the value we truly hold. What is your definition of a hero? I would love to read your comments.

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Self-care is how you take your power back.”
– Lalah Delia

Have you ever dreamed about the “perfect day”? Do you even know what that might look like for yourself? Furthermore, have you forgotten to celebrate YOU?


The demands that are placed on us day in and day out, at times seem like a huge challenge. We manage, however. Each day we wake up, and we have our routines. We go about our day dedicating time to parents, children, partners, siblings, colleagues, bill paying, grocery shopping, house cleaning. But what about ourselves? It seems like we don’t often include ourselves in that routine, but we should. Consequently, we have to remind ourselves that if we are not at peace within, or healthy mentally and physically that we are no good to anyone else. Therefore, should we not come first? Give yourself this precious gift and get to know yourself.


How do you, or would you, celebrate YOU when you have a day all to yourself? Here is my perfect day.


1. I wake up early and savour a cup of coffee or tea with the sunrise.
2. I journal my thoughts for the day and daydream a bit.
3. Take a long bubble bath
4. Self-care with a massage or pedicure or hair appointment or if I’m really lucky all the above.
5. Plan my next perfect day and schedule it.

So now it is your turn. Take a few minutes and close your eyes. Sit somewhere comfortable, but not too comfy because you might fall asleep! I want you to stop and really think about this for a few minutes. If you had a day all to yourself, what would you do to fill your time? I would love to read your comments.

I am also sharing this link to an article I came across in Psychology Today and it is called Why You Shouldn’t Feel Guilty About Stealing A Little Time For Yourself. Enjoy the read!

The heart of human excellence often begins to beat when you discover a pursuit that absorbs you, frees you, challenges you, or gives you a sense of meaning, joy, or passion.” — Terry Orlick

I love that quote! It is so true – discovering your purpose in life, letting go of the things that no longer serve you and embracing the things that do, will give you a reason to get up every day and this is pure happiness. I think it all begins with celebrating you! Discovering that passion by making sure you are in the right mindset.

Here are my top ways to celebrate me – every day. It is time to stop putting yourself at the bottom of the pile and to stop saving things for a special occasion. You are here now and every day you are on this earth should be valued and celebrated!


Here are my top 5 ways of celebrating me, every day.

  1. Sleep routine – make sure you go to bed and wake up at the same time. Get into the habit of turning your phone off, keeping it out of the bedroom. If you have a television in your bedroom, remove it.
  2. Eat healthy food, food that nourishes you. If you’re wondering what that looks like. Eat as many colours as you can. The non-processed kind. What does processed food look like? Read this. Drink plenty of water
  3. Move your body. If you’re in pain the best thing for you to do is to move. Stretch it over pushing it. I much prefer a good stretch, for example, yoga over something that is going to be hard on my body. Exercise should not be a punishment, it is to celebrate that you have a body that moves. It’s designed for it. So now use it.
  4. Clean up your environment. What I mean by this is to clean up your space around you. Your car, your home, your workplace. Is it cluttered and disorganized? Give yourself the gift of a clean space and celebrate you. Hire outside help if you need it – don’t feel guilty!
  5. Detox your friend’s list. Do you have people around you that make you feel guilty for not calling them? Does seeing that person stress you out? Some people come into our lives and they are there forever because of mutual love, interests, and enjoyment. Others come into our lives perhaps at a time when you need them, and unfortunately, you may grow apart or your mutual interests change. These people served a time and a place and it’s now time to let them go so they grow in another direction. Look at it this way, you might also be holding them back because they’re growing in a way that’s not aligned with you anymore. Your paths crossed and now it’s time to move on. You can love some people from a distance and this also includes family members too.

In summary, in order to move forward in your life, you need to change your mindset, let go of people or situations that no longer serve you and truly sit down with yourself for a long-overdue talk. Make a plan, a routine. Work on disconnecting yourself from old grudges. Get healthy by eating nutritious foods – move that body! Get out into nature. Turn off the electronics when you go to bed. Perhaps open the window and listen to the night sounds (hopefully not a busy freeway!!). Think back to times in your life when you truly felt happy – what is different now? Make positive changes and seek help if you need it.

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Good Morning Everyone.

Last night I did it. I am so excited to share with you that I actually followed through with a dream of mine. It’s a wonderful start to something magical. I actually got up in front of a crowd and read out loud some of my writings. It was incredible. I conquered a fear and came out the other side of it feeling better than I have in a very long time. I had pride for following through with a dream of mine. And it was well received. Just a small quaint group but nonetheless I did it.

Last night I was wanting to do more, I was addicted to it right then and there. I wanted more. I even mentioned once it was all over that I should hold one in my home considering they were not going to be holding another one until February or March. That seems like such a long way off.

Also just to show you how the world works in this mysterious way. A woman asked to sit next to me and I said of course. We both read our writings and when she finished I shared with her what a great job she did and that it was no mistake that she sat next to me. Out of all the people to have sitting next to me and all the tables she chose it was mine. Her writing and mine were similar by which it is of the spirit….We both believe in the spirit force that surrounds, that creates us, that holds us together rather than apart. We are all one. I was and I guess still am in shock. Amazing. I gave her my phone number and asked her to go for coffee or whatever sometime. Her story is also like mine in the fact that she is new to town as well and do not know too many people here either.

What glorious ways the energy works and in perfect timing. Love it.

I am definitely moving in the right directions of my dreams. It feels so right.

Yesterday I was trying to figure out a way to get of it as well. So glad that didn’t happen. However my ego and pain body really wanted to find any way possible to achieve this, to get out of what ‘they’ thought would be more pain. I read and re-read a few other books of mine trying to find one that seemed to make sense to me. However nothing I had wrote was making sense to me. My sentence structure and grammar were all of sudden notorious I had no faith left inside for me. All of the sudden I had nothing to present and I felt like a failure. I knew it wasn’t my true self, I knew I would have to push through it and be the true self. The one I’ve tried so long to be and this was the opportunity I’ve been waiting for so long. Understanding that everything happens when it needs to and so forth, now was the perfect time for this to happen. Eric came home and tried to get of it again sharing my despair with him. He was perfect and said I can do it, to just read and keep it flowing. He knew I could do or at least let on that I could or should. It was the first thing I’ve ever wanted to do just for me. Ever. Finally.

So here I am the day after, still with the glow on me. I am sitting at my desk writing this and wanting to share it with the world. I think I’m ready. I think the world is ready for me too.

I finally get the message to never give up on your dreams. To never give up on yourself.

To think back to all things that had to line up for this to have had happened the way it did is simply amazing.

I am now living in a community who cherishes their arts. I am among others who support one another. I am living with a person who loves me and believes in my dreams. I am in a town that has a beautiful library- to think I enjoy going to a library. I had never been to one until I was an adult. To get me into one and be happy there, then finding the posting for this writer’s cafe and then signing up for it right there on the spot. That’s incredible. Everything had to be lined up perfectly. Not my perfect but the divine energy’s perfect. Even for me to have the courage to do any of the above impresses me. I use to be the really quiet one who dream secretly and not share any of them.

Here are 10 steps to get you out of debt and on the right track towards your dreams

Step 1
write down the amount you made last year and subtract the what you have today in the bank account. Take a look at that number. You have to know the truth.

Step 2
Print off the last 3 months of your banking transactions.

Step 3
Write down all the income you’ve brought in and add them up.

Step 4
a) hi-light all the restaurants you spent money on.
b) hi-light in a different colour all the food you spent money on. * this is ONLY grocery money *
c) hi-light in a different colour necessities (ie: toilet paper, shampoo, tissues, feminine products)
d) hi-light in a different colour auto payments that come out every month
e) Add up each colour for each month and divide by 3 – this is your average.
Do you spend more than you make?

Step 5
Outstanding debt never makes anyone feel good.
a) Make a list of all the outstanding debt you have.
b) in one column write out the amount owing
c) second column write out the monthly payments
d) third column write down the interest rates

I know this may seem overwhelming but don’t give up. With everything in life those things that need change first need us to change and we need to adjust and that can be uncomfortable.
Life is not suppose to be comfortable.
First thing is to really look at this and see exactly what it is you’re dealing with. And know this, once you look at it, you don’t ever have to be there again. Everything you do is a choice and how you spend you money is just another choice.

Step 6
This is the Plan
Add up all of your outstanding debt. You want to be sure you’re making all your minimum payments and then the extra money you’re working for will go towards the amount that is the smallest.
Then once you have this one paid off, celebrate without spending money. Then the money you are putting towards it will then be going to the next outstanding debt. This is called snowballing your debt.

Contact the companies and tell them your plan and when you will be making your payments. You want to be working with them. You may negotiate for a lower amount depending on how much you owe and for how long it’s been. Sometimes this works but not always. They may want a lump sum so be prepared.
Call all the auto payments including your credit card and see about lowering your interest rate.

Step 7
Cut the FAT (Frivolous Actions Taken) This is where we need to trim up. Cancel anything you do not really need. Television, cell phones, cars etc. Anything that you do not really need. Get rid of it.

Step 8
Find More Money
This is where you are going find more money. Now if you’ve cut as much as possible and you’re still short then you have to increase your income.
Can you pick up extra shifts at work? Can you do a part time job on the side? Is there papers that need to be delivered in your area.
Here’s where the money is:
Take 15 minutes to do this.
Make a list of all the things you’re good at.
All the things you love to do.
Anything you have talent in.
I mean Everything. This includes walking, if you can.
Look at that list, give yourself a pat on the back. There’s more than you thought.

Step 9
Let’s find even more money.
Here’s some ideas:
Sell what you do not need or use. Clothing, electronics, furniture. You can sell online or in person.
Have a yard sale and sell the belongings you have that you don’t use.
Downsize your home into something that fits your current income.
Get rid of the big car, you can find one without payments. Sell it.
When shopping check out your local thrift store only if there’s something you need.
When grocery shopping try to do so in bulk. Price match and use coupons when available.

Step 10
You have a clear vision about what’s real when it comes to your money.
Now I am going to add one more here.
You also need an Emergency Fund!
I am serious. I’m sure your eyes just got really big and doubt crept back in. But hear me out. This is your own personal cushion and the just in case. This comes before you pay off your debts. You make your regular minimum payments but you put the extra you make into an Emergency Fund. At least until it gets to $1000.00. After you pay off your debt then your Emergency Fund should be 6 months worth of your expenses. Now that number’s a lot bigger.
This is ONLY for EMERGENCIES . Think about it, if your car needs repair and you need your car to get to work, what do you do?
You need to have the Fund and get it quickly.
You know the amounts, everything is written down and all payments are visible and set up to paid on time and for the correct amounts. You have additional sources of revenue coming and you have let go of things that were holding you back.








I enjoy meeting lots of people and learning something new. it’s not my perfect way of spending my day, but it’ll come. As long as I keep my eye on the prize and stay prepared, when the opportunity comes I’ll be ready.

I really need to be more discipline when it comes to writing my book. I am a little overwhelmed when it comes to editing it. There seems to be a lot and I don’t want to make a mistake. I know that is all in my head but it’s one of my fears I am trying to face. I really need to face it head on. Lord help me.

I want to share my stories with so many other people. I understand others and can help them get through the tough challenges they are facing. You are never alone.

So how come when it comes to trying to help someone else go through their struggles I can be all there is to be. But when it comes to helping myself I feel like I am alone??? Seriously.

Last night I broke down a barrier a bit with my man and I shared how I was feeling and what I really wanted from him. But considering I had to ask  for it meant I didn’t want it right then. Because I had to ask and tell him what to do. I want to be with someone who knows what to do. How to give themselves to me. I know that really sounds selfish and it is. but why shouldn’t I be with someone who is selfless. There is taking care of yourself and then there is only taking care of yourself.

I am trying to find the balance for myself, because most of my life I’ve only been giving myself away to others and now it’s time to give back to myself. To fill my own cup.

When I’m down, who do I have to turn to for support? Do we ever really need anyone? I think so. I believe we need to reach out to others for that outside support. We are after all humans who require other human contact. In what form? I’m not too sure.

So we surround ourselves with those who are capable or not to fill this requirement. I’ve managed to eliminate everyone around me. I have managed to surround myself with no one. Nothing has really changed over the years. Before I was around others but they did not have my best interest at heart and didn’t know what I needed therefore we unable to give me anything. other than heartache. Now I’ve removed myself from these people and have only one person; my man and he’s unable to do it either. Am I asking too much for someone to love me? Am I really sending out all these mixed signals to him? Or is it that he’s not capable of giving me what I really want. I have explained it in great detail and he says he believes me and totally understands but when he needs something it’s as if he totally forgets everything that has ever been discussed up to that point. i am the nagging wife…..something I never ever wanted to be a part of. I never wanted to be. How did I get here? Why do I have to be the one who constantly reminds him of what I said yesterday, last week, last month, last year……. why?

I am really talking myself out of this fantasy I’ve created so delicately. How can this happen to me again? Or is it just my mind  playing tricks on me?  How do you know when you’re with that ‘perfect’ someone? Can you ever know for sure? I think it all comes down to feelings. The passion you have for this person, the way they make you feel. It has to be like that. Now I don’t believe you have this feeling all time, or do you? I am really struggling with this. I have so much to give. Maybe that’s it too, when you want to keep on giving even when it gets rough and you really are struggling but you still want to give. Is that the answer? How long do you keep this up however if it’s never being returned? 

I am not my past, I am not the little girl who cannot speak her mind, I am not that little girl who is scared to make someone upset by just being me.I am a grown woman, the woman I always wanted to be, the one I would dream about wishing I could be with a snap of my fingers. Well my wish is here.

If I were to go back to that place and be around those people who aren’t there for me now nor were they there for me before. It would slowly kill me again..  I am here in a much better place and I love me. I have never really said that before and meant it. But it feels good and I believe it.

I can honestly say right now that I am letting go of what there was in my past and I am opening myself up to the possibilities I have right here right now. I know I am able of great things. I’ve always known it but now I can actually see it coming true.

Remembering gratitude when you feel bad. 

In my heart of hearts I believe my son knows this as well. I know he desperately wants something better for himself, but he has to prove it to himself in his own way. I tried to protect him so much but making stronger and to believe in himself. We had to. I didn’t know any better. Today I do and I am working on me.

I have a loving man in my life, who didn’t go through the pain that I had went through, thankfully because really i wouldn’t wish that onto anyone. He supports me in the best way he can and he’s really good at it. I am blessed.

I have a healthy happy son who is learning to be really independent, just like I had taught him. Although I really wanted to be a bigger part of his life, I have to learn to trust what I taught him is serving him well. We are both learning more about ourselves these days. That’s why we are like this.

I have also 2 smaller children that are a big part of my life, what a blessing to be able to pass on the lesson’s I’ve learned so far. My husbands family shows love the way I had thought I had wanted, but nothing is perfect, so I am accepting what I am given as far as love goes. Blessings.

I know I’ve been living in my past fears on this pity train. I wanted people to love me for everything I’ve been through. I wanted others to be proud of the things I’ve overcome and being able to smile in the light of day. it’s been a struggle yes that’s for sure. But for those of us who truely overcome difficult times are those who do not dwell on it and sit in the soiled mess that was created when you didn’t know any better. When you were a baby you sat in your soiled diapers, not knowing that’s what you were doing, soon though you discovered it was uncomfortable and not enjoyable at all. You learned to get out of it and move on. You didn’t sit in it nor did you go on and on about how you use to sit in it and want others around you to feel sorry for you and say what a great joy you did.. You just did it.  I know not the best description for this but it really drives home the point. I am done with sitting in a mess and wanting others to experience the pain of being in such a mess. I am ready to put on my girl panties and be me the best I am.

Wow what a difference a few hours make, I am feeling tears trying to come up, not tears of pain, or sorrow but tears of joy. when the lows are low for me the high gets a little higher. I love it. Thank you. I can smile with gratitude in my heart and joy lurking around the corner. yippee. 

I am not my used diaper anymore. …yeah I ‘ll have to work on that one. It just doesn’t sound quite right.

When you think about it I’m really not that little girl anymore and I am really happy to have finally discover this. thank you.

Have you ever not been picked for a team or have you ever not had your idea heard?
Remember how that feels…That is how all the inspiring ideas you have feel.
They are a part of you and this bully inside your head gets its way all the time or so it seems.

Your hopes and dreams are there for a reason, they are part of your inner being. They live at your core and how do we treat them?When was the last time you actually listened to them? If ever?


I have heard mine for years but the bully always seems to get its way and shuts them down.
I like to think of myself as a kind compassionate person who loves to give everyone a break but I have yet to actually act on it myself.

I think it maybe time to let my dreams take the lead. It sure feels better when I do, my body dances with joy being allowed to just play. Creating is the normal, thinking outside the box. There’s no more talking, it’s all just singing, music fills my ears and love comforts me.

Yeah, again why haven’t I allowed them to come out and be heard? The opposite is no fun and it can actually be quite painful.How can we be addicted to the pain? Is that the way we believe we are actually alive?What bullshit that is. That is the way we have been controlled.. remember comply and protect.Enough already. I think I am wanting to hear what my dreams really have to say.

Are you listening to yours?

Good Morning Everyone.

Here I am here at the kitchen with my lap top  and a coffee and my man here with me. Things seem to be a little better, I think we are both present and aware. At least that is what I’m hoping for.

I am sore a fair bit from ……..well probably from being out of shape. I am working on changing this and that’s why I’m sore. I am walking more and more and working-which consists of me being on my feet for hours and then I’m doing yoga. Which all is good for me but it’s really different for me for now. It’ll get better the more I do it. I love how the body responds so easily.

I have to work later on today. I really do like working there. It’s such a good fit for me. I keep it moving.

Today just seems like one of those days when I can’t really pick a topic to talk about on here.

Outside it is foggy, very heavy… I can only see the houses across the street and no further. Not sure if it’s only here in town or everywhere just because we’re so close to the water. it’s a day where you put on soft music and light a few candles..maybe a little house keeping and stay warm. There’s a change in the weather coming. I can feel it. .All change is good, it’s not something to fear it’s something to embrace. And this I do. I love change. Even that that  I do not have control over I believe I do adapt fairly well with it. I love changing locations, this is why I move a lot. I like to have different experiences and meet new people. I am finally in a place where I feel like I could belong. There are so many others here who really enjoy life and see it for it can be and do it. I love that. Last night in fact we went over to a neighbours near us here and they rent out used ski equipment.. how brilliant. she’s been doing it for years and she enjoys it. We were able to outfit 4 people for under 150 dollars and it’s not really old stuff either.

I cannot seem to stay focused on anything right now. Arg.

Back again and this time I’m on the floor after finishing my meditation practise for today. Although I may do another one later on. 

The affirmation is I Expect and accept abundance to flow freely to me today. I really love it. this meditation was very powerful for me.. I could feel and see waves of light coming to me. I could feel my power. It is very powerful. I now that might sound strange to some but some of you might get it. I understand to be true that we all have great powers within us and life is all about trying to peel back all the baggage we’ve been carrying around thinking we need it for this thing called life when in fact we already have it. It’s just been buried so deep. You life is about pulling it back and see what is really. It’s all beautiful. even the stuff we think is ugly and no one would want. But that’s not true, you born this way and somewhere really soon there’s someone out there who really needs you to be just like. And chances are they’re closer than you think. The need to see you be the real you, being just who you were born to be. This will help them to peel back their layers that they are so scared and terrified of doing in order to be their true self. There’s a cycle of life and it’s more about being authentic to ourselves and exploring who we are,learning as much as possible about who we are. To me this sounds exciting to others probably fearful of removing the coat of excuses you’ve picked out oh so carefully and have been wearing ever since. I am shedding my coat of excuses and putting nothing  else on. I know I have been given free will and I plan on using it more and more for me.  I have really big dreams and I know they are on their way.. I am preparing for when they arrive. It’s not a matter of whether they do or not it’s just a matter of timing. Now I’m not sitting around waiting for them to happen either. This is why we need to prepare. it’s a blessing to not have it arrive when we think it should. You actually maybe being protected by having it not happen right now. Perhaps it’s because there’s a storm ahead and you’re meant to sit back and wait it out in safety. Or maybe it’s because there’s an even bigger dream coming your way that you’re meant to be doing. All this preparation is paying off in ten folds and beyond. You cannot even imagine what dreams you may be able to live out… Just be open to them when they arrive. Because it’s in your thoughts is simply because you’re suppose to have them and it’s on it’s way. Be ready. Learn to remove fear… 

wow, now that’s a good start to a blog for today. Namaste.

Good Morning!

Here I am sitting at the desk, while my whole house shakes more like vibrating but nonetheless it is rather unsettling to say the least. The reason for it is due to some construction going on up the street, but I believe it’s even more than that. I believe it is trying to tell me something about myself, I need to shake things up and because I haven’t really been able to the world is going to do it for me.

Last night we went out for a walk around town and found a few more beautiful spots to enjoy mother nature and the heaven we currently live in and among… we chatted about the book I had been reading and finished yesterday as well Peace from broken Pieces by Iyanla Vanzant and my own experiences and some of my writing from yesterday. Really i think I just counsel myself and give myself advice as if I was at the therapist office. Sometimes I don’t think he’s really listening to me. Not sure if it’s intentional or just by habit, of course I find it rather annoying but I love him anyways and he has his own stuff to deal with.

Anyhow I talked my way into the best advice ever and somehow it all made perfect sense and there was no fear. … I am just doing it plain and simple. I’m not waiting, I’m not asking anymore questions about it, I’m not creating this mound of excuses for why I can’t or shouldn’t live my life as I’ve always dreamed of doing. Everything just seemed so clear and I wasn’t afraid.

I am just going to start by talking with people. I already know how to do that and love doing it. I love to entertain so I could even have a few over to the house. It’s because of all my pain and experiences that I can relate to so many people, I’ve always known this and understood that purpose but have been too scared to really pursue it. Well not anymore. I am the leader I’ve always wanted to be. I am!

Only I can be all of these things I want to be. Up until this very moment I thought I had to wait for someone else to tell me what I could do or not do…. I know crazy but it’s a pattern I learned very early on. Or I also thought up to this moment that I had to learn someone else’s and if I did learn their love & passion for it then they would love me. I tell ya I’ve spent a lot of time doing things I really wasn’t very interested in but when you don’t know any better you can’t do any better.

Now there’s’ nothing wrong with learning new things if you truly have a desire for it in the first place. It is all about your intention.

So I am excited to say that I have finally figured out a really big piece of my puzzle, I can create the life I want and or always wanted by just doing it. A big smile comes over my face.

So here we go, I want to be happy and peaceful living a serene life. this is my wish & prayer for everyone else in the world as well.

I wish to be healthy, love being active and eating well. Enjoying the freshness that the world has to offer us. What a blessing we have, through the great divine – sunshine, water we have a bountiful amount of food to choose from. These are the foods I want to enjoy and savour. Being active even living outside and being aware. Love it.

I want to share this.

I want to be my best and that includes feeling good about how I look. Washing my face, brushing my teeth….I know it sounds really odd that this needs to be included but it does. I wasn’t raised with personal hygiene being a top priority. I learned I had to put myself last…

Interesting moment here right now, I believe I’ve been waiting for someone to put me at their top priority…..yes that’s it. As I felt like I didn’t matter a whole lot growing up, I searched in a lot of wrong places for others to treat me like their number one, because I couldn’t do it myself. If at any time I would have done that it would have been really frowned upon and it was made to look like I was showing up. Which was never a good thing either.

Now being an adult I can make these decisions for myself and not have to worry anymore on who is pleased or not. I like that freedom.

Other things I wish to accomplish now with my new found spirit is I want to share my story in anyway possible. I love to share the words with feelings and hopefully learn something new or just in a different way. I wish to travel, which will probably mean I will have to become a little more comfortable with flying and maybe even alone. nodding my head on the inside… I also want to teach, I want to teach life….. I know that sounds really odd, but there’s really other way to describe it. I want to teach others how to be comfortable with who they are and who they wish to be. Or another way of putting it would be becoming more of who they really are. Opening up the awareness, shedding some light onto it and walking through the darkness. We don’t have to be alone. I can be that friend that holds your hand, I can be that one who shows you how to cook, how to decorate, what to eat, or just having someone to vent your frustrations to. for so long in my life I’ve felt totally alone and that I was the only one who was going through this or that. When in fact there’s millions of us who are going through the same thing and would have loved for someone to be there saying you can do it and I’ll be right here with you to help you if you need it. What freedom that would be.

You need to go through the pain in order to give it away. If you try to avoid and go around it it’ll just keep coming back in another form until you get it. Just go through it. Their life is none of your business it’s God’s not yours.