This has come at a cost in my life. This has allowed others to take advantage of me. This does not mean that I am weak, quite the opposite in fact.
I have several names, a birth name, a family name, a married name. I have titles that have been given to me and then taken away. I have been called names that don’t deserve the light of day, and I have been called things that are compared to the nature and beauties of the world. I have been called mother, wife, sister, daughter, friend, lover and they all have been taken away from me at one time or another. Wow,
I have actually never really thought this in this way before, and in this very moment I am shocked that I can use letters from the alphabet and string together sentences. And yet I am still here.
Every time I am labelled and put into a box, I die a slow death, and then from the ashes I rise. I rise up like the wind and find a way out, I can feel freedom. A fresh start, a new page. To stand in the light.
Every time I was down and out and the count had begun. The silence would haunt me, it only made my flaws echo louder within my mind. I could hear the pieces break off of my heart in that silence. I have begged for a way out so not to feel that heartache. I am one of those “sensitive” ones where I feel everything on a cellular level.
As a child having this ability I picked up everyone’s around
me, all the emotions, not just the one’s they were showing the world. I could feel it from behind the mask.
After each heartache, betrayal, life shattering moment, I have somehow managed to get up and keep going. Don’t get me wrong there I’m not perfect, nor do I want to be. But I have to admit that there have been several times where I turned around and walked right back into the cage and was attacked again. And yet, I survived.
How? You may ask. I’m not really sure, looking back
the situations seem different and perhaps I do similar things. Sometimes it’s a deliberate effort to get up off my ass
and move on and then there are times when I pray for it all to end. But somewhere within me is a whisper, a push or pull a force without a name that moves me from the inside out. Like when you have to go to the bathroom, that sensation just comes without any effort from you. After each life altering event in my life I would have to redo my life. I would need to make adjustments, change things here and there. And eventually I come to realize that I was always renovating my life. And then I wanted to help myself and I thought if I had a program, a community it would be called what and here we are.
Renovate Your Life is about survival, getting back up, and to keep going. How to heal and when it is absolutely necessary. To celebrate all the little wins and to throw your own damn victory parade. After all in some cases you just back from war.
I actually very much like doing construction renovations, destroying and removing what’s not working and creating what I need in my life today. I very much believe that we do this in our own lives whether we’re aware of it or not. We are designed to grow and evolve and if we choose not to then the storm comes and helps us out. Even a forest will burn in order for new growth to start.
I wanted to let others know that they are not alone. You are not alone. We all go through similar things in life, it’s just a different style, a different colour, different people etc. I want to be your contractor for your renovation. The courses I have put together are your blueprints, they are a suggestion or you. You are able to reach out with questions and we’ll get you the best answers we can. You may need to know about different styles and this is where I’ll share my renovations. The before and after’s are quite dramatic.
Renovate – Your Life is a community where you take small daily actions everyday to become better than you were yesterday in all areas of your life. It does not matter if you’re stuck in life or if you’re succeeding. There will always be an area that you want to improve.
Firmly believing that you can start exactly where you are today. As with any renovation, you change the things you want and leave what you like and what’s working for you.
As you grow and time passes, you forget that sometimes you need to update some aspects of your life. This is the renovation process. Whether it’s your finances, your health, or your relationships and that also includes the one you have with yourself, you want to be better, to improve your life.
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